nothing. green tea.

?

Today:

cereal (220)

banana (90)

grape (70)

nuts (170)

Total: 550 calories

I'm proud of myself, first day of the week without a binge nor a throw up time.

Feeling weird, i'm single. I don't know how I feel actually?

Falling?

Yes.

Frida Gustavsson (who could believe that we have the same age?)

I vomit all the time. Tomorrow I have my one on one rendez-vous. I'm stressed.

Mia's got power

Today:
- 6 sushis maki (150 calories) + 6 hosomaki (90 calories) + Cookies (160 calories)  -> Vomitted
- 1 apple (90 calories)

I feel sort of bad, because I threw up at school...  I know, it's bad...

I had my first meeting with the group, it was nice, but I'm scared. I think it's to soon to judge how it will be.

Nadine Coyle amazing legs :)

Perfect Abbey Lee

I suck, you suck, food sucks...

Yesterday I avoid the binge, but unfortunately not tonight. Good job girl!
I cooked some muffins, and now I have to resist for not eating them all, considering the fact that I've already eaten 3. Damn. With so many other things. It sucks. Really, it does. And the fact is that I can't even purge, because I'm not alone at home, and that my parents are starting to be tired of me laving the house all the time, so I can't even go outside to throw up. Nice.

100th POST

I WANT TO BINGE AND PURGE !

Oh my god, I have some chills. Yep, this is how much I want to binge. It's giving me fucking chills and takes my breath away! damn. I'm sick. No, I'm not. I'm just weird. I'm gonna go on the scale to convince me not to binge, it's a nice trick. 

Everything is alright, except at night

bla bla bla bla, not too much into writing today.

Total: 1 yaourt (80 calories) + 11 baby carrots (35 calories) + 1/2 pita (215 calories) + 1 bowl of cereals (220 calories) + 1/3 apple (30 calories) + baby orange (30 calories) + various small portion of random food (100 calories) - 1,6 km of fast walk (-121 calories) = 589 calories


I just feel disgusting.

Too much pressure and I feel kind of homesick...

I received some nice grades today. It felt kind of good to have this pleasure again. The psychologist from the specialized house wrote me to know if I was available for some one on one meeting next week, in the morning. Problem is that my parents don't know anything about my eating disorders so they can't motivate me at school...Tomorrow I'm gonna ask my supervisor if it would be possible for them to motivate my missed classes without my parent's authorization...I hope so.

I'm in a very very busy week, and that make's it easier to avoid being at home and eating with family nor binging. The only thing is that I've got too many things too do and I don't know if I'll be able to pass through it.

Today= Oatmeal cookie (200 calories) + Apple (90 calories) + Small chicken salad (195 calories) + 2 coffee (4 calories) - 30 minutes of elliptical bike (-300 calories) - 20 minutes of training in a gym (unknown)= 185 calories